Yesterday I went to Whole Foods to see if they had candied pecans. I didn't see any but I did see a strawberry and pineapple cup that was like $9. I don't understand why. Is it the best fruit in the world hand delivered by angels? I love good fresh fruit but whoa, who's buying that? Now the cookies for $1.29... I can dig it. I cut my facial hair off on Friday and got a new haircut. I don't know if I like it. Maybe I need to do something with it. Does your hair change when you get older? The texture? I could just be too damn fat. Isn't that the cause for everything? I'm gonna get my life together I promise. The Grammys came on tonight and there was this big fuss because Beyonce was asked to perform Precious Lord Take My Hand as intro to John Legend and Common's " Glory " from the movie Selma. Ledisi sings the song in the movie as Mahalia Jackson. So the issue was why ain't Ledisi singing it. Beyonce is everything. Maybe that's why. And I like Ledisi. But I think it was a moment of what can Beyonce perform that'll go along with our production of the show. We need for Beyonce to perform. The show was more ballad driven. Not a lot of partying going on. Maybe that was the message. There were some good performances however. Annie Lennox came through. I enjoyed Ed Sheeran. I wonder what it would've been like to be on that stage. Kanye West performed a new song. Katy Perry sang a beautiful song. It was a long show, but I thought it was ok.
February 11
I wonder if it's possible to be sexually liberated without having an expanse of sexual experience. I also wonder why I've never had a lot of sex. I'm 34 and my list is not big at all. Compared to what I hear I haven't done too much. But you know niggas lie. Maybe it has to do with my no anal issue. Yet still. I could low key want to have had a lot of sex so that I could use that as an excuse to not be doing it now. That seems more likely. Today was leg day at the gym. I didn't like it. I need something else because I'm not feeling anything. Where's my Mojo???
February 14
Today was Valentines Day. I went to the mall and bought myself two cupcakes. I went in a couple stores and I noticed something I'd noticed previously. The younger gays are feeling their power. ( doesn't that sound like American Horror Story Coven and the supreme?) I noticed them walking about getting their entire gay lives. Coming into their Adult. You know that feeling you get when you realize, you're grown. As I walked by them all, I felt it for them. There were lovers at the mall of course. Godiva was selling chocolate covered strawberries $8 each and six for $40 and your cousins were buying them. Cheesecake Factory had a line down the street. Valentine's Day is interesting. It's like Christmas, but with a focus on...sex. I guess. The ppl [single] are in their feelings. I don't have a Valentine. I didn't feel anything until I saw it in action. I bought a bottle of champagne. When I got into my Uber car, the driver said I looked tired. I need to get myself back, but I don't know where I went.
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