I went on my first date in probably eight months or so today. We went to Shake Shack. I could've done without it. I thought it was something else imported from NYC that would be awesome and it just wasn't. Very disappointing. I love a good burger. We went afterwards to see the new Restoration Hardware that Tarsha called a " snooty Home Depot ." It was six stories of magnificent and grand interior design elements. I'm not sure if it was all just a showroom or could actual purchases be made. Obviously, the complete concept was luxury. Being that it opened in the "new " Buckhead Shops or whatever they're calling the area. We enjoyed each other nevertheless. He's tall, bald, with a beard. He has an amazing smile. He dropped me home after a stop at Caribou Coffee and approved our IG photo. I had a long chat on the phone with Tiffany about FRB and she said there's a funk cloud happening there that's almost unbearable. It's sad to think about. Sometimes God will get you off from ship before it sinks. I took a nap, then ordered pizza. I wondered if he wanted to see me again. I don't know how to do this. I watched The Giver. Beautiful movie. Reminded me of that movie with Reese Witherspoon where everything is Black and White and color starts appearing and the town begins to live. I'm fat.
January 13
I'm watching Madonna's Truth or Dare. What did this film do? What was it of its time? Groundbreaking? Did it do something? I feel like it was monumental. The greatness of Madge. High priestess of illuminati. ( I'm not an illuminati nut ) I went to the gym today and did legs. They ache but I'm not crazy sore yet. I'm stubbornly going at my own pace because I don't know what I'm doing. I know what to do but do I really have to? I'll figure it out. Common and John Legend won a Golden Globe for their song " Glory " off the Selma soundtrack. It's an amazing song. What if they win an Oscar? That's where this is going. They'll probably perform it there too. This is the stuff artists dream about. I spoke to Moms yesterday and she prayed for me unexpectedly but I'm grateful. Even in my religious back and forth, I need something. You've got to have something. I spoke to the date today. He wants to see me again. I'm in.
January 14
For Christmas I asked moms for a faux fur throw for my living room sectional. She bought me instead a velour throw with the black and white theme, well part theme, that's going on in there. It's the most comfortable thing ever and I stayed wrapped up in it all day. The weather was so grouch that I couldn't think of much else to do. My butt cheeks were still achy from yesterday's workout and I just embrace that as a good thing. I watched a video today where a woman was complaining about men texting too much instead of calling. I'm so tired of that argument. If a man isn't calling you, he doesn't want to. If you met him on a social cellphone app why expect him to go " old school "? Pick your battles. It was Vance's Bday and I took entirely too long trying to decide what to get for him. I ended up with cupcakes and something else. Hope he enjoys. While on the Magnolia Bakery website I saw they offered the " Carrie " because SATC started it all for them. That's so awesome to me. Could you imagine? I want one.
January 15
There are interesting people that go to the gym I go to. Aside from the naked old men in the locker room of course. There are ppl that workout in regular clothes which isn't that weird I guess but it is interesting seeing someone run on a treadmill in dress pants. It's also comforting to know there are other individuals that have no clue what they're doing but know they should be doing something. Like myself and the arm workout I dialed in today. Went to lunch with Sylvester afterwards. Discussion about dating came up as it does often. I'm tired of that discussion. Sylvester doesn't know about me and Him. I'm not gonna tell him either. Whatever. I'm protecting myself from conversations I don't want to have. Speaking of Him, we Facetimed tonight. ( Is that our thing?) He has the most amazing smile. I may be on the path to smitten. Or...idk. We need to plan a date. I took a nap and woke up to the smell of some good food cooking...downstairs. This building is so old, I thought it was in my own kitchen. It really did smell good. Today was LL Cool J's 47th Birthday. Imagine that. Barbershop tmrw I think. I have an ingrown hair that has to go.
January 16
It has been like Seattle here the whole week. Just GREY. I've never been to Seattle but that's what people say about it. I remember being in the barbershop and someone talking about how people kill themselves there all the time because of the weather. That's such a psychological...( I don't know the word I wanna use here.) You have to have mind over matter for real I guess. Maybe that's why 50 Shades of Grey was set in Seattle. All kinds of symbolism and word play there. The movie comes out next month btw. I'm in. The weather made me stay in today and wallow in uncertainty of myself. We are allowed that sometimes aren't we? It gets on my nerves that people get into this faux positivity thing. Sometimes we are not ok. Sometimes we don't feel like it. And that's fine. Let people be human. The Oscar nominations came out today and the blks were annoyed because there were no people of color nominated except for John Legend and Common for Original Song for Selma. I get it but... Idk... Not a lot of black films get made. Not a lot of black films are supported. Oscar voters are old white men. So it's like The Grammys and...Congress... Selma was a great movie though. I do think the director should've been nominated. Ava Dubernay is her name. Watched American Idol for Jlo and Adam Lambert guest judged. I guess that's something new they're doing. There was a clip of his audition and the transformation from then until now was remarkable. Hollywood magic. I texted Him and said I wanted to see The Boy Next Door. No response. Maybe he didn't know what I was talking about.
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